I just looked at my most recent post and realized it is from a very, very long time ago! You could say my life has been anything but normal lately. Its been quite fast-paced and unlike anything I have ever done and unlike what the average person living in this world would say as well. On August 1st, I officially became an intern with Cru. Well, what does that mean? My job is to talk to students about spiritual things and to help students take their next step in their faith to help them grow. Now, I think that is a pretty sweet job! I go to campus every single day from about 12 to 5 and talk to students, train some leaders, and meet new people.
This week was the beginning of actually being on campus and you can say I was more than a little overwhelmed. I had no idea what I was actually doing on campus and the reality of my job finally smacked me in the face. I was nervous. I was scared. I was alone.
I think that is the worst feeling in the whole world...feeling alone. And not to mention my biggest fear in life is being alone and never being married or having a family, etc, etc. Monday I felt completely alone and confused. BUT! God quickly changed my heart as I went to sit and pray outside. I was watching the hundreds of college students walking past me. Some of them are probably Christians. Some think they walk the Christian life but don't understand the personal relationship aspect. Some of those students party and could care less about God. Some students believe their is no God. BUT then I remembered my whole purpose of joining Cru and becoming an intern. There were students that were walking by me who have NEVER heard of Jesus or God or had the opportunity to receive Jesus into their hearts. God grabbed ahold of my fear once again and grounded me in His promise that I am never alone and that the calling He has given me is so much more powerful than just interning with Cru.
For the past two days we have had tables set up around campus trying to draw students in. We have free things (candy, waterbottles, freezypops, etc.) The only catch: students take a quick 30 second survey to see where they are at spiritually. Well, I haven't counted all the surveys yet but 23 female freshmen filled out those surveys! Praise God!!!! And many of them rated their spiritual walk right now being anywhere from a 7 to 10. My job now is to follow through with those females and grab a cup of coffee or just meet somewhere and talk about where they are in their faith and for many of them present the gospel and go through assurance of salvation. WOW! And here I was on Monday totally freaking out about what I was supposed to be doing. I am both anxious and excited. My desire is that these women would really want to meet up and talk about their faith or spiritual things in general. Can you image if all 23 of those women make a decision for Christ and become part of the movement at Salisbury?! God can do it. All things are possible for Him as long as we are faithful and obedient.
Today, as I woke up again my stomach was churning with nerves and just fear. If you know me at all, you know I get so extremely nervous and this is a normal feeling for me...thanks Mom for passing this down to me! Even before I opened my bible I was praying God would use His Word to renew me and comfort me. Psalm 85 comes after Psalm 84, which I read yesterday so I went right there. Psalm 85 talks about how God shows favor to His land, how He restores us and forgives ALL our iniquities. David is praying God would revive the people that God would show them His unfailing love. David reaffirms and tells himself that he will listen to what God says that God promises peace to His people and His faithful servants. That is exactly what God is doing to me right now in this exact moment...I am reaffirming to myself that God listens to my prayers and His peace is comforting me far beyond what I need.
David goes on to say, "The Lord will indeed give what is good, and our land will yield its harvest. Righteousness goes before him and prepares the way for his steps."
God gives me what is good, gives us what is good! Our land yields from its harvest. In the same way, Salisbury University and the Eastern Shore will yield from its harvest. If I am being obedient and daily sharing my faith and talking to students about spiritual things, how can God not show up? He will yield fruit from the harvest. And the coolest thing for me is that God goes before me. He prepares my way! God has already prepared the way for today when I take students out with me and we go talk to people. He has prepared tonight at Cru. He knows exactly who will be coming and why they are there. God is too good to us. We deserve nothing but because of His unfailing love and His master plan, He chooses to use us. Thank you God. Thank you for loving me and choosing me to be a part of your Great Commission and master plan.
