Whenever something new begins there are hesitations, concerns, and fears–its natural. I always find myself not liking what this new beginning is because at first I hate change. However, as I begin to enjoy a new beginning, I find that old fears, feelings, concerns, and hesitations are wiped away and I move on. On to better and bigger things and I find myself experiencing and doing things way out of my comfort zone and actually enjoying them!
At the end of my second week here at OCMD, God has really challenged me and forced me to do things way out of my comfort zone. Now, as an extreme introvert, these things may not seem as radical as say jumping off a cliff, but at times during this week that has been the feeling inside of me! My four girls arrived Tuesday and I was SO excited to finally meet them face to face and were they all so excited. I am thrilled to be a part of how God is going to work in and through them this summer and watch them grow and take steps of faith. The first day we were here we went out sharing and one of my girls took the lead in approaching a woman, I was so proud…I felt like a mom on the side of a soccer field cheering for her child. Our conversation went great and come to find out the woman is a Christian, which gave the two girls I was with confidence and encouragement. I can already tell that people here are open to sharing their faith. Last summer in Hampton, I experienced an extreme dry season and was turned down over and over again but I feel as though God was preparing me because now I am experiencing a ripe season and people are open to talking about their spirituality…its pretty wild!
One of the new beginnings that I am facing right now is leading a ministry team. At school, I plan so much so I knew I didn’t want to lead the community, family night, or prayer team because I already do those things. I took a step of faith and decided to lead the stewardship/operations team. Now, I know to most this doesn’t sound appealing but God has given me a passion for administrative things, cleaning, and really taught me how to be a good steward of my time, money, and resources. I had to give a brief overview of my ministry team yesterday morning and I was so scared because I know this is always the least appealing and popular team BUT I tried to make it seem vital and I guess I did because two of the men and one woman actually joined my team!!! PRAISE GOD! Then, during my meeting I started talking but the three just took right over and it is such a God thing. I am SO excited to see these students take over and be leaders. They have already proven themselves leaders and understand the team is a balance between correction and encouragement. Last night I also shared my testimony with the students to model what a 3-5 minute testimony looks like. I was extremely nervous but did it and have conquered that fear.I also got to talk about Marc again, which always brings me so much JOY!
God has helped me overcome so many fears already. I have taken, what seems to me, leaps of faith. I am learning to be confident in myself as a God-appointed leader and to not be afraid to speak up and give direction. I feel as though I have tossed away some of my insecurities and allowed myself to try new things. I am so excited to get back to Salisbury and be the leader God is turning me into. I know God is forcing me to do things that I don’t like to do but he is truly forming a godly woman. He is taking me out of my comfort zone and placing me in what seems, at times, uncertainty. I know if I continue to allow him to use me and not be afraid to step up and lead, he will enrich me and bless whatever it is he has entrusted me with…excited to see all he has left in store for me while here in Ocean City!
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